Visit/week 11.
I was pretty blank beforehand. Quite numb really and not wanting to lead the way. I spent much of my time turned away from ***, unable to look at him and with alot of hard going and work he offered that I might be afraid of what I see in his eyes (possibly refelections of my own feelings of ****). After alot of struggling with myself - we talked about attitudes to sex and I'm quite shocked about how uptight I am about it and my own sexuality. 'It's okay for you to have feelings for me and to talk about them' he says... 'it's okay for you to look at me'. But I'm scared we might be attracted to each other (counter transferance and transferance). He fully acknowledges this may be so between 'man and woman' but that it's okay to explore these responses in me and that it's a protected space in which I can(...)