Visit 11 continued.
Visits to *** have become the highlight of my week. Does that make me a sad git? Its so lovely and warm to have somebody invest so much interest and care in my well being (even if he is being paid to do it). In fact, that seems to make it okay. Is he simply saying that playing, loving and giving are important to our lives. It's so simple isn't it. Being chilled and having a good head - happy heart and cheerful disposition are everything but so difficult to do. It would seem that psychotherapeutically the warm tingle of sexual excitation is a sort of medicine. But it works. My life's sparked up considerably along with my libido in recent weeks. (..)This book is a sort of confessor to me. To show I'm not hiding nowt. Who to? ****** I guess. But he doesn't want to know. Why do I carry the baggage of guilt with me? What do I fear?