After week 12 visit.
I carried through my determination to be grown-up and sensible at this visit. I think I made the right decision... I explained about my reponses to men/gay women who showed me sexual attention/interest, concern, enjoyment. *** pointed out that I lumped together these things when they could be considered quite separate, e.g. sexual interest and concern. I said both ***** and I responded to attention in this way, e.g. being flattered/grateful and bashful when shown care. I told him that my reponses included sexual excitation which was a very intense response. *** interpreted my desire to show gratitudes as a desire to give. He was very accurate. I do want to 'give' to people who show care to me. My efussive 'thanks' to people and 'sorry's' etc. My desire not to hurt others. I want to 'give' so much, but why? I said 'I can't(...)