After week 12 visit continued.
(...)bear being in debt. I always have to give presents in excess or I feel 'bad', 'tight'. I put this down initially to my bad, 'tapping' [begging], teenage years and the moral reproaches of family, but I think there's more [to it] than this... I was always taught never to 'take' or 'ask'. I'm not sure... need to consider this further. Prove my worth perhaps? I mentioned the Oedipus complex and said that I wondered what I was putting onto *** and that I couldn't believe this behaviour was all related to a desire for *** ******. *** offered to 'sum up' for me... 'perhaps your'e putting both the sexual interest (that you sought as a substitute for love as a little girl) and the concerned ***** interest of your ***** (that you desired and never had) onto me. Your'e getting that concern from me and there's also the sexual interest that you perceive in, that's brought together onto me, maybe?' I think this could well be possible(...)