After week 12 visit continued.
[He carried on summing up...]
'As a little girl you wanted love but in effect love was cut off as you reached sexual maturity in puberty. You then sought love through sex - though the return was limited'. [I'm going from memory here, so there's lots of possible misquotes!] 'There's alot of sexual energy that's been boxed up. You put the lid on tight when you changed' [from 'whore' to] ('Mrs Walton). 'So when you let a little out [sexual excitation] through these responses, you then feel bad, guilty, it's wrong. But it's not wrong. Youv'e let a bit out and it's touched outside of here hasn't it?' I definitely need to continue talking in a serious and adult manner. *** mentioned he could see the half of me as mischevious and the other half reproaching and forbidding me to do so. Well I will continue to talk and release my sexuality and sexual excitation. He told me to 'go, have fun. I'd like to be around when you do'. I need to think about why I want to give, give, give and why I respond so sexually to attention. Think about my teenage lonely years also. (Next appointment two and a half weeks).