Week 13 before visit.
i feel blank. Don't know anything. Scared about impending nature of a return to work. Just endeavour to be honest and friendly. I feel really trembly and scared about going in to see him... Resentful. I don't want to go. Why?

After visit 13.
A really strange session. I dragged myself in, most sullenly and couldn't cooperate. Said I didn't want to be there. We talked about work and I tried to stress that I had tried everything with managers. He said I need to go back with my own rules. They don't have them so I should impose them. I said I'd done that and after seeing the work pile up for two(...)