Visit 15.
I managed not to 'hide' in my usual manner at all at today's session. It was light - serious and good. **** very astutely related my later [in life] studious phase to *****'s earlier one. I told him how important it was that he'd told me he couldn't return my feelings. He asked why I can't focus on my Ph.D. [proposal]? I told him it was because I was thinking about my therapy all the time. He said I should be able to focus better now, but that **** had his permission to clip me round the lug if I did too much on it, balance was required. I said I understand now how love could provide the balance. He advised me to stop analysing/critiquing [my]self and to enjoy the sessions purely for me.
Next week: honest, straight, look in [the] eye (like last week).