Week 16 - after visit.
Lots of things begin to clarify... **** full of cold. Went in with my little list of issues. Told [him] them then wanted to leave. Felt I needed to get out while [the] going was good. Thanks to **** I felt really okay today. Okay about speaking with him etc. I really like him, but now that the sexual excitation has been driven away I like him in the real. I'm not uptight about him no more. He's a lovely person. That's enough! He says I don't have to chuck everything away - some things are good to keep. We sussed why I wanted to leave as well. Why I felt I had nothing left to say (for three weeks now!) I said it might be a bigger knowledge than mine, indicating it was time to move on. He gave me his 'stare bear' look.