Week 16 - after visit continued.
'Do you feel it's time to end?' he wanted to know. I said not. (Do I hell want to stop his sessions!!) I just felt embarrassed with nothing to say to him. 'There's nothing to me... I can't speak' I said. 'Youv'e broken all the illusions and there's nowt left. I've nothing to offer'. He (again very astutely) sussed that perhaps this is connected to my social block with communicating and [is] therein linked to ****... if I wasn't to be appreciated for my views, assertions and intelligence and got by using the tools of 'looks' and 'sexuality' then that would figure why, now, when these tools were put to one side... I felt that there was 'nowt left', nowt to keep him interested in me and that he'd see the boring bastard that I am in all my negativity. Except for art and education of(...)