Week 18 after, continued.
(...)maybe that positions me (in my view) as a lesser... I am 'the patient', 'the case number' and I feel more than that alone... I feel my subjectivity, my identity, my 'Sue-ness'. But I don't know Sue. I haven't found her. Only this woman who can't concentrate or earn money at the moment. Am I getting worse? I feel 'rude' for not showing [an] interest in his well being. And I feel firmly positioned as a patient, an unwell person - the balance is weighted/or (un) - as needs warrant... through my request. And that's the key word... I have requested this strange relationship so how can I feel rude? I've been(...)