Week 21.
It was a difficult but a great session. I explained to *** how I'd been and my desire to get back some of the warmth into my life. He talked about my moral policing of self and how I'd arrived at my deadened sense of existence by way of a literal survival tactic. *** asked... how someone, (a little girl) could be loved and adored and told she's beautiful, only to be, a few years later, told she's the lowest life on earth. 'Did she grow two heads?' 'No', I responded. She began to desire other males than her ****. *** mentioned my image changes (I've had more than Madonna over the time I've been there). He said I was looking good, classic... [that] my hair looks good. I am changing rapidly. Older say some, older and better says ***. He helped me(...)