Week 22 continued.
(...)sessions there are left, they are there for me. So I need to use them and take them... e.g. what about work? Can I go back to *** if I decide to return? But I could ask that in a letter couldn't I? I don't know if I can bear to go back... 'cut my losses' as they say? I've got to find a way through this. Right now is horrible and sad and dirty and I don't think it does either of us justice if I feel this way.
Always critique
Hang on a minute Sue! Cut through all this loss stuff for a moment... what about you? He always, consistently said the [same] message... acknowledge these emotions/feelings, they're not bad, talk about them, accept them and work out what you want to do with them. So it may be useful to do that... maybe learn how to begin playing with them for example.